I had IVIG today. I usually have IVIG brain fuzziness for about 12 hours afterwards, so if I make a lot of grammatical mistakes or spelling errors in this post, my apologies.
It's not like being high or anything. Parents of newborns (or children who were once newborns) will be able to relate- it's like the brain fuzziness you get from that fatigue, except minus the bone-crunching fatigue. There is some fatigue that does go with it, though.
It's kind of interesting when I have to work immediately after, or the next morning when I have it in the evening- for the first few hours of work in the morning, I feel a bit out of things.
When I have to care for my son immediately after, or drive somewhere, or bring him to Occupational Therapy (OT) for his Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD), it's not so interesting. Sometimes with the fuzziness comes irritability, and that's not a good thing to have when caring for a four-year-old who LOVES to talk, and HATES certain parts of OT. Today, at one point during OT, he was going into a meltdown, and I was thisclose to actually leaving the room, I was so annoyed with him. Oh, and I yelled at him in the car on the way home- that one was for talking too much. He was very upset by that, and was positively silent the rest of the car ride home. I apologized to him later, and explained to him what happened and why I yelled.
I don't like yelling at him. I don't do it often, which is good, but whenever I do, and he bursts into tears immediately, I feel like a total schmuck. I still feel like a total schmuck, and that was four hours ago.
Just one more thing to thank my malfunctioning immune system for.
I know this probably won't make you feel better, but think of it this way - of course you don't want to snap at your son, ever. But it's absolutely impossible to avoid those kinds of things, even without the obstacle of a chronic medical issue. The fact that you apologize to him later and explain why you snapped is showing him that if he makes a mistake, it's not the end of the world - and it's modeling the behavior of admitting a mistake, making amends and moving on with it. I think that's a really important thing for kids to learn. The fact that you're showing him that he deserves the respect of an apology, even though you're the parent and he's the child, could definitely teach him not to accept disrespect from other people and to show it to everyone himself.
ReplyDeletemy son is 9 severly autistic still cant talk id love to be able to yell at him about talking to much.
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